Blog:Why although I'm 31 years old, never got a girlfriend the real truth

Now I said a few times that I never got married but I never said I never got a girlfriend which actually is true I may never get one because I was always real ugly, in fact even though I don't remember it, my parents told me despite never having facial differences, they remember the doctors and nurses looking at disgust at me and they saw me and also thought I was ugly and almost abandoned me. Now I asked tons of people on a date even if they were considered decent looking, consider attractive, or considered ugly I always got rejected I would since 7 ask any female as my father told me a few days before I'll never get a girlfriend and never go on a date. He was right they'd always say somewhere near this "No way! You are way to ugly," to the point where I'd soon make the biggest mistake of my life at 21. I nearly had killed myself I barely would eat and always force myself to puke and try to get near to overdose on growth hormones and to attempt to carry tons of pounds despite already being on the slightly tall and slightly skinny while being slightly strong and slightly hairy side of life. I soon passed out and was lucky enough to survive. I was also always bullied at school by basically everyone even teachers. I did eventually find friends who didn't care about my looks and weren't toxic with my first friend being when I was 28 and currently I have 7 friends. but they didn't have any attraction I had attraction to a bunch of females but none of them I'd even ask ones I didn't like all for a bet. I had nobody have attraction to me. I had suicidal thoughts when I nearly died because that'll mean I couldn't make myself decent looking. I was kind of a simp except they would do anything for a person but I'd do anything to be with any person which leaves me confused if I even was a simp luckily I don't have suicidal thoughts and grew character according to my friends but sadly we live in a world where looks truly matter. I never improved in looks I still look real ugly and looked like the same since about 5 or 6 which is my peak of ugliness and may never improve except I do have a few wrinkles. That's my story and goodbye.